Sunday, May 9, 2010

all life is an experiment. the more experiments you make the better.

hey guys !wats up ?
today ?huh 100510 its our big day :)
hha ,no really ,just pretend too
today is my father and his bday .
and today is our 4th month anii :)
i fall asleep last night :( im not the first
i hate it ,i hate my self :(
i'm scared that today i cant hangoud and eat with him
daddy said ;no more going home with friend ,i'll fetch you at 3 :(
huftt
btw ,i'll find way !huhh
iloveyoouuuu :)
gtg ,thadaaa

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

not a smile

last night 040510 i really feel like iuwhh
when can i have a harmonies family ?
3 years ?5years ?or never will ?
and today 050510 my day start with a sad face :(
i dont sleep well last night
my neck hurt and yg hand are also hurt
life is not fair
never be fair
oh yha ,jessy call me last night
i told her everything that happen .
gtg guys :)




Monday, May 3, 2010

just search for some picture in google -o-o-









time

i really miss the time we had
i'm sorry if i had done something wrong to you
how i wish i could turn back time :)
i miss us





huhhhhhh

bad feeling ?
your insting like dog one ?
understand ?hahhahahahaha
i bet you're reading it now
bo yaaaa !:p

shame

oh man !
wtf ?
he read my blog :(
crazyy ~
huftt
dont you dare again !

Saturday, May 1, 2010

give up ?

should i have a thinking like that ?
am'i wrong to think like that ?
should i said "i should give up" ?
she's better for you .
just she's not in batam so you're not with her
how if she's in batam ?
we will never know each other and thats the better way
you only can said i'm to stupid to choose him (my *ex)
yes ,im just to stupid .
im also to supid wana know you .
she's more pretty then me
i'm so ugly
i have enough boy
im to sensitive
i know you dont like when im sensitive ,but i cant
i try my best .
but i still cant do it :(
im sorry .
when you start telling me the story you and her .
it feel seemed you are very happy when you're with her
sometimes i got jealous when you talk about it
repeating " its just past " to my self
but still i cant do it .
im just pretending to you that i dont know anything
you dont know how my feeling is ,
a month ?can we not meet a month ?
you cant ,having a relationship must meet every second ?
they dont @@
but you ?you should meet
you said you know my feeling
but ecually you dont boy
ya ,i always said that if you want to know your feeling please understand my feeling first .
when i said to you ,you'll said ,"you want me to understand you how ?"
huftt
just ignore wat i said
you're so scared that i'll leave you one day ?
if you keep on thinking like that ,i'll leave you ,i felt it before
i'm scared that ,that boy will leave me .
and really ,that boy leave :(
i'm just to trauma ,i'm sorry i cant love you with my full heart
sorry reader if my grammar is bad ,i'm not in the mood :(